If you would have told my fourteen year old self that I was going to marry a hair stylist when I grew up, I probably would have laughed and not believed you. Because I was going to be the hairstylist in the family right? But then again, I’m sure there’s a lot of things I wouldn’t have believed.
Isn’t it funny how when we’re younger and try to envision everything that will happen in our future; what our husband/wife will look like, or maybe you already thought you knew. Back then I was probably thinking Paul Walker, we were going to have a little house on the beach with about 5 or 6 half nakey kiddos running round. Ashely and Mary-Kate were going to be my best friends and live next door along with Taylor Swift and we would hang out and have BBQ’S every night. — haha It’s making me laugh a little thinking and reminiscing about all of this.
Fast forward 14 years later, and I really couldn’t have imagined a more perfect-not so planned out life for me. Everyday I feel so incredible blessed that all these people picked me to be in their little family crew. I have such a wonderful hubby who helps out with dishes and laundry (yup you heard me right;)) he reads stories to our kids, hugs them and looks into their eyes to let them know how much he loves them. I have two beautiful boys who have filled my dream of someday having twins, because they pretty much are. And I have a sweet little girl with the most beautiful smile who makes us laugh everyday. I think it’s taken a few life lessons to realize how lucky I am and how good I really do have it.
When I’m counting my blessing and writing in my grateful journal I feel more happy, more grateful. I have come to realize that happiness is something we generate. And when we are not generating it, the opposite tends to try and seep in. We can choose happiness and we can choose to be happy NOW. Not five or ten years from now when I’m living in our dream home, or when I get preggy with babe number four, or when we can finally get a puppy or, or when Evan is only working one job or when I get this or do this or that, but NOW. I can choose now to be happy.
Those things will happen when they happen. And if I’m not happy now, who’s to say I will be happy then? Most likely if something doesn’t change in myself, I wouldn’t be. So that’s why I’m choosing now. Sometimes these lesson’s keep coming up because we didn’t quite grasp what we were being taught the first time, sometimes it’s a soft little nudge, and sometimes it’s a big ol’ kick in the butt. But once we finally apply what that lesson was trying to teach us, that’s when we can move on and see just a little more clearly where we are heading. So today I’m choosing to be happy NOW. I hope you will too.
xoXox
